My love-hate relationship with my brown skin.

This post isn’t about racism but it will be about how much i have been battling to fully accept that I am a female of color and I do have a chocolate brown complexion.

Let me back up a bit.

I am from Guyana, South America and I am of Indian and European descent. My complexion is about dark brown. Everyone skin color varies but just like everywhere else on the planet it seems like a lighter complexion is the “perfect”. I always heard the typical sayings while growing up…”Always stay in the house”…”You shouldn’t be in the sun too long, you’re a female and you don’t want to get any darker” phf! Whatever that means *rolls eyes*

Now, I believe all skin color should be appreciated but I feel like my emotions are constantly contradicting my believes. Its stupid if you think about. Its stupid that someone has to be insecure about the way they literally born. We aren’t talking about weight or hair length or anything that’s always changing. We are talking about the color of our skin here and it saddens me that I feel insecure about it and its even more sad that I wasn’t encouraged to love myself during my first few years. It took me years to realize that I feel the way i do. My only question now is why we think beauty has a limited standard? Do we always need to compete and belittle the other? It just makes me wonder… will society always look at the different as inadequate? We all should be accepted from the palest pale to pitch black.

I have been trying to accept myself as the beautiful, smart female that I am. No one, regardless of their complexion should be insecure. No one should tell people how or why they should’ve looked. So to anyone out there, feeling like they aren’t enough because of the way you are born….you aren’t alone but you aren’t no less either ❤

4 thoughts on “My love-hate relationship with my brown skin.”

  1. OMG I’m so sorry but I have been feeling like that! I am just the opposite I wish I had darker skin!!! You’re gorgeous come on!!!!??? Dark skin…..girl with dark skin u look YOUNG!! I SEE ALL MY DISGUSTING CROSS FEET I’M BROKE SO I CAN’T AFFORD 1800 FOR MY SHOTS I’VE ALWAYS WANTED!!! I HAVE A TOOTH IN FRONT THAT DENTIST FILLED AND CHARGED ME FOR BONDED HE NEVER DID!! I WOULD HE HURT ANYONE EVEN MYSELF BUT I’M NOT LIVING LOOKING LIKE THE UGLY WHITE TRASH LOOK! I’M MISERABLE BUT I WANT
    U TO BE HAPPY

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    1. You are beautiful just the way you are- we both are. Its hard to fully accept yourself but its not impossible. From your profile picture i can tell you are one gorgeous girl and from your words, i can also telll you are smart and sweet. I genuinely believe you are great!

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  2. UR the first to get number but ur a girl and I wish u were mean you could come knock all teeth out BUT I WOULDN’T get money I would have to check ✔out DUMB IDEA LOL
    WE R A PAIR WE SHOULD CALL US
    SHE WANTS WHITE I WANT DARK
    OR WHAT’S IS YOUR NAME? WE’LL.MAKE UP SOMETHING BUT UR B!ESSED!!! MY GREAT GREAT GRANDMOTHER WAS BORN ON AN INDIAN RESERVATION LIVED UNTIL 6 YEARS AGO 105!!! WALKED EVERYWHERE ARE VEGGIES AND WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING HOW YOUNG SHE LOOKED!!! WE R SISTERS U AND I!!!!! WE ARE INDIAN UR LUCKIER THAN MY WHITE UGLY TOOTH THING

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